I have choreographers block. I'm supposed to be working on a duet to "Maybe I'm Amazed" by Paul McCartney. My original concept was to write a love story but I never did settle on which part of the story. I mean, it's only a 3 minute song. What mood or feeling or idea do I want to capture? I want the piece to be beautiful and to feel like being in love when it's watched. But I don't want that feeling of blinding love or early insecure love. I want it to be something more developed and mature. I thought of playing with the theme of independence and relationships. How two whole individuals have their own paths but then somehow find a path that they follow together without losing themselves as individuals. It's an idea that would need some more fleshing out. In dance, it's difficult to convey anything this subtle. I usually need many, many words to do that. It's also not really a wise move for choreographers and dancers as inexperienced as we are, to try to do something subtle like that. So, I'd be concerned that any movement I did to show them choosing a path and following a path together would end up looking negative, like "tied down" not "tied together".
I think that the block is perhaps fueled by a bit of fear of disappointing myself. Is that what creative blocks are normally fueled by? I want this piece to be really good. I want it to be one that stands out and that people will talk about well after the show is over. I want it to be beautiful and a testament to a strong bond between two people. I just don't really know if I can do that. I don't really feel confident that I'll be able to achieve what I'm trying to do. And so - I'm supposed to be choreographing tomorrow but I have nothing ready. Oh dear.
I've been using all the Christmas preamble and house work to procrastinate on the choreographing too. Tonight I mixed the dough for some Lintzer cookies that I'm going to bake on Saturday.
Talk to you soon,